Anger Report, Ad infinitum

Yeah, yeah. I know my Good Ol' Three Faithful Readers, I skipped a few days in my Anger Report. So much, that even by now I have begun to understand much of my anger and regaining control. Did I write them? Yeah, I did write them; but if I must be honest, I never allowed myself to post them. "Always busy." No matter, I will summarize them in the following way:

• Anger Report Pt. 2.- It dealt with people not interested in people; only in obtaining the end result no matter the human cost.
• Anger Report Pt. 3.- "Do unto others..." Jesus, you really set a very high standard. Because no matter how much I do unto others like I would like them do unto me, they never do. Sometimes I think I just expect too much of people.
• Anger Report Pt. 4.- Why do we take everything so seriously and forget to have fun? I know I like theater as a mean to have fun, to socialize with others. But how can I have fun when I am being yelled at by people who take it "seriously"?

Actually this is a very, very funny point. So much I will stop and be as acid and explicit as I can. To all of you people who take it "seriously": While you spent sleepless nights wondering why you cannot do a particular scene, while you cry in dispair, while you worry with the lines repeating them over and over, while you flunk you classes, while you kill your friendships to be a star, while you are being "serious" at achieving your dream; I have a Best Actor in a Main Role Award; one of the best directors in Mexico has fought against burocratic bigots to have me in the play and I make my parents proud. All of this while I am having fun.

You know, I will be a good sport and tell the "serious" people the answers to all their worries; the secret behind my small and meaningless succes so they can stop stressing themselves because they cannot do their job right:

1. Have fun! Instead of worrying, enjoy it. Do not think of the end result, thing of the now and enjoy failing, learn from it, laugh at yourself. Fun.
2. If you are still failing and crying, then by the love of God why don't you realize you suck at it and stop making a fool of yourself?

Arrogant? Maybe. But if I suck big time at it, at least I am having fun big time too. In the end, I win.

• Anger Report Ad Infinitum.- I am realizing most of the time I am angry; almost 100% of the time. Only you do not notice because I smile and pretend all is well; and when I finally get tired of putting up the charade, it is then when you realize I am so uptset. Sadly, it usually means I'm so full of it I am beyond reasoning. Do the experiment once: scratch beyond my surface, have a conversation with me, sit by me, observe me. I want to cry out, but I do not want to do it alone.

So... yeah. This did not came as I originally planned. My original plan was to make a quick summary of the Anger Reports and procede with another interesting idea that came to my mind which - oddly - has to do with my acting award; and any other kind of award given to any person. But I shall leave that for some day in the future for you to read...

... as for me... right now... I just remembered I am angry.